Life has gotten the better of me the last few weeks and I haven't taken the time to write. So many things have happened in the last month, it's hard to know where to begin.
Xander is recovering from his surgery and after several weeks of being out of school he finally went back today. Unfortunately, things didn't go quite as well as I had hoped. I think anxiety got the best of him, and he managed to work himself up into a ball of stress. I finally just had to leave him at the school, but it was really hard because of watching the tears running down his face. His school day ended on a better note, and thankfully there are only 3 more days of school this week until Christmas break.
Marquella is doing just great and I'm so proud of her. I can't remember if I mentioned it before but she's going to district for the science fair. With all of the attention that Xander has been getting lately, it's been important for me to spend time with her. Last weekend we went and saw Brave at the dollar theater, hung out at the mall and generally had a good time together.
I finished classes, my Photoshop class was pretty cool and I learned some interesting stuff in my event planning classes. I'm torn about taking classes next semester. Yes I have free classes but I'm not sure the emotional and mental cost is worth it right now. I have too many things on my plate and I need to sit down and prioritize my life.
What I really want to do is make movies, which was really hammered home at the Utah film commission luncheon last week. I was hanging out with the people that I really want to hang out with. I need to stop using my children as an excuse and start using them as a reason.
There only 3 more days of work for me then I have 10 days off in a row. I need to take that time and clean my house and get my life in order so that next year I can focus on my career and my kids.
Forty is just a few months away and I have so much to do before then. I can't afford any more months of being "interrupted".
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