I have a job interview on Friday, which is good, unfortunately it is a part time job which sucks. It is at SLCC which means it is like going home, but I have to admit it was nice making really good money. Being able to pay all my bills and having extra at the end of the month was amazing. This job is going to be less than what I was making at SLCC at the end, so that's a problem, but living on unemployment is worse.
I just need to focus on sending out query letters. I've got to get over the anxiety of the whole thing. It is quite ridiculous for me to be so neurotic about the whole thing. I have people who were interested before, so there is reason to believe that I might be able to find people who are interested now.
I don't think it's really even about people saying no. It's the possibility that people won't like it and think it sucks and tell me that I'm completely insane for wanting to be a screenwriter, let alone a film maker. Talk about serious doubts. I can do this, I know I can, but fighting the voices in my head is an uphill battle. It's exhausting and so hard to overcome.
Tomorrow I just need to focus on the query letters. I don't have to send it out, I just have to get it written.
I can do that. Really.
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