Well it's not so much homework that I'm avoiding so much as it's writing my story that I'm avoiding. So ironically I'm writing to avoid writing. At least I'm not watching television, 'cause this is at least going to help me get into the mood to write. I hope.
I'm really excited about this weekend. The kids and I are going to house sit for my boss. He lives on a small private lake and we get to hang out, do some fishing maybe, use the canoe and generally just get away from things in Daytona and have a mini vacation. I'm all about that. I desperately need a vacation and if I can't fly anywhere, this is the next best thing. What will be nice is that on Sunday, my neighbor Mandy and her kids will be coming down and spending the day and we'll get to hang out and generally just relax. It's been a long time since I've gotten to do that.
Of course, as I'm writing this, I just remembered that I have a sink full of dishes that I'll need to get done in the morning before we leave, because I so don't want deal with them when I get home. Thankfully the rest of the house is in really good shape. It shouldn't take much more than 15 or 20 minutes to just straighten everything up. I had planned on doing it today, but I ended up taking a nap. Just totally dragging, which is annoying. I have too much to do. Oh well.
Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about my problems lately and they can really be broken down into two types. Ones that require therapy of some kind and ones that require money. Right now, approximately 90% of my problems are related to money, or rather lack of money. The other 10% would be greatly improved if I had money because I could tackle them and eliminate most of my stress. I think people seriously under estimate the power of money, especially when they don't have any. They go on and on about how pious they are or they act like a martyr because they don't have any money. Neither of those attitudes are generally helpful. They say things like "money is the root of all evil". I beg to differ. It's the love of money that is a problem. Look at someone like Sandra Bullock. She has massive quantities of money and is very generous with it, because she's grateful for her abundance.
I want to be better at giving, but right now, it's scary because I have so little. It's probably my biggest weakness. Fear that somehow, my kids will live without, but I know better than that. In my church, one of the big things is paying tithing. I suck at it. But I also know that if I pay tithing it will come back tenfold. It's fear. I can't believe how debilitating fear can be. The other thing I want to work on is service, but it's one of those things where I get so overwhelmed, I don't know how to cope. I can barely get the things done in my life that I need to get done that I feel that if one more thing is added to my plate, everything that is so carefully balanced will come crashing down around me.
Once school is done, I think a lot of my time will be freed up and while working on my goals, I will also work to become a more service oriented person and one that is freer with money. Of course I also know the more money that I have the more giving I am. It's a lot easier. Oh well. I'm not perfect. Thankfully I have time to keep working on it.
And now, I think it's time to get back to finishing my story. Not sure how much time I'm going to have tomorrow or Sunday which is when it's due. I'd rather have most of it done tonight so that I can just play.
I'm really excited about this weekend. The kids and I are going to house sit for my boss. He lives on a small private lake and we get to hang out, do some fishing maybe, use the canoe and generally just get away from things in Daytona and have a mini vacation. I'm all about that. I desperately need a vacation and if I can't fly anywhere, this is the next best thing. What will be nice is that on Sunday, my neighbor Mandy and her kids will be coming down and spending the day and we'll get to hang out and generally just relax. It's been a long time since I've gotten to do that.
Of course, as I'm writing this, I just remembered that I have a sink full of dishes that I'll need to get done in the morning before we leave, because I so don't want deal with them when I get home. Thankfully the rest of the house is in really good shape. It shouldn't take much more than 15 or 20 minutes to just straighten everything up. I had planned on doing it today, but I ended up taking a nap. Just totally dragging, which is annoying. I have too much to do. Oh well.
Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about my problems lately and they can really be broken down into two types. Ones that require therapy of some kind and ones that require money. Right now, approximately 90% of my problems are related to money, or rather lack of money. The other 10% would be greatly improved if I had money because I could tackle them and eliminate most of my stress. I think people seriously under estimate the power of money, especially when they don't have any. They go on and on about how pious they are or they act like a martyr because they don't have any money. Neither of those attitudes are generally helpful. They say things like "money is the root of all evil". I beg to differ. It's the love of money that is a problem. Look at someone like Sandra Bullock. She has massive quantities of money and is very generous with it, because she's grateful for her abundance.
I want to be better at giving, but right now, it's scary because I have so little. It's probably my biggest weakness. Fear that somehow, my kids will live without, but I know better than that. In my church, one of the big things is paying tithing. I suck at it. But I also know that if I pay tithing it will come back tenfold. It's fear. I can't believe how debilitating fear can be. The other thing I want to work on is service, but it's one of those things where I get so overwhelmed, I don't know how to cope. I can barely get the things done in my life that I need to get done that I feel that if one more thing is added to my plate, everything that is so carefully balanced will come crashing down around me.
Once school is done, I think a lot of my time will be freed up and while working on my goals, I will also work to become a more service oriented person and one that is freer with money. Of course I also know the more money that I have the more giving I am. It's a lot easier. Oh well. I'm not perfect. Thankfully I have time to keep working on it.
And now, I think it's time to get back to finishing my story. Not sure how much time I'm going to have tomorrow or Sunday which is when it's due. I'd rather have most of it done tonight so that I can just play.
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