The saying from Alice in Wonderland comes to mind, "we're all a little mad in here." With a mild case of bi polar, I do experience some mood swings, and right now I'm in a manic mode. I've been extremely creative at both home and work and I've been working on my power 90 goals which in turn has my brain going a million miles an hour and I have ideas flying at me continually. Thankfully, I don't do too much stuff that will cause me grief later. I did a bit of retail therapy yesterday and bought 4 pairs of shoes. I suppose that might be extreme, but I did it after paying all of my bills. A very responsible thing to do if I do say so myself. :)
The problem is, when I get like this, all of the ideas are such a jumble in my head and it's hard for me to focus. It's the whole getting the ideas out of my head and onto paper or computer or whatever medium is available. I really wish there was a brain-computer interface. It would make my life so much easier. Earlier, I was so wound up I could barely function. I did discover though, that if I can talk to someone, I can get rid of some of the energy and even just that little bit helps me mellow out.
I've been in a rather depressed state for so long that I forgot what it was like to be in a manic state. It's pretty cool, but at the same time I can completely understand how this can make someone feel like they are losing their mind. My case is rather mild all things considered, but my heart goes out to people that have more severe cases. It can be debilitating. It's crazy what a bit of insanity can do in and to your life.
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