I'm getting back on track with everything, which with the holidays is going to make life just more exciting. Between news that I received at work and the idea for my Web series floating around in my head, I know that I've been distracted. I'm sure that it's just the familiar old beliefs that I'm fighting. This last power 90 class was about finding a new belief that will keep me going and take the place of the old. In this case, my old belief is that "I'm not good enough, no one will ever want to hire me, no one will every want to be with me." In a word, rejection. It's a constant battle to fight the fear of rejection which is why it's been so hard for me to send my scripts out. "What if they don't like it?" I'm working on saying, "who cares what THEY think?" I have too many people in my life who care about me. I don't need to worry about "they".
Anyways, during the class we constructed a representation of the old belief. Using play dough of all things, but it was very effective. Then we got to burn and bury them. I'm really looking forward to not facing that old belief any more. Then we worked on a new belief. Mine was that I'm loved and accepted. We used play dough again and created a new representation of our belief, hence today's picture of the heart.
My heart.
It's pretty cinna-spice-a-licious, if I do say so myself. Cinna-spice-a-licious is my new word that will remind me just how awesome I am. And it really does work. Yesterday I was feeling not bad, but not great any was close to heading down a wrong path. My new word popped into my head and I had an immediate smile on my face.
So here's to being cinna-spice-a-licously awesome.
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