The last few days have been rather challenging emotionally. There was no one thing that got to me, but a combination of things that were all weighing in me.
First I let my inability to get my scene written psych me out. I was so close to everything that I couldn't move past it. I needed to spend time doing other things, to clear my head so that I can come back fresh to it on Monday. I worked on my slide show and I'll be finishing that up tomorrow. I also watched a new show, Raising Hope, a comedy. While I love a good drama, I love Dexter and just saw the 1st episode of Breaking Bad, I've been watching a lot of them and the content was starting to bring me down. Which I'm sure wasn't helping my mood.
Next, I let a guy get into my head and made me feel bad about myself. He was so convinced that my past was black and white when that is the farthest thing from the truth. There are so many shades of gray and no one reason why I did what I did. I have a past, most people do. My past is what had made me who I am today, and while I know I have a long ways to go, I've come a pretty long ways already.
Those plus a few other problems that separately weren't a big deal, all caused me to have a minor breakdown yesterday. Mostly I just needed to have a good cry and talk it out and I felt ten times better.
Today was another day of healing. I worked on cleaning then I went to the audition that I had wanted to attend for a while. Amazingly enough, I made call backs. Very excited and exciting news there. I also got to hang out with my buddy from power 90. We did dinner and then a bit of retail therapy. Sales are awesome! Feeling much better. Tomorrow, I have much to do, but I'm getting back on track and looking forward to life.
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