365 days of 40 #207-217

I can feel myself at that middle stage of a goal where you're hitting burn out and wondering if it's worth going on. That's how I've been feeling lately about blogging.  I think I put this pressure on myself to write every day,  so it's been more like a journal as opposed to a blog where I'm writing about a specific topic.  Not a bad thing, but it's been hard to get motivated about writing much of anything. Granted, not much has been happening of late that actually feels wiring worthy.  It's the same old drudgery that seems to be keeping me in a loop of negativity for the last little bit.  I've just been fighting a case of the blahs.  Nothing is really bad but I'm just feeling off. I know that a lot of it is that I spend too much time alone. This job is going to be the death of me.  Yes, I am trying to use my time to work on stuff, and that has been helpful, though the last week, it hasn't been writing. I think I needed some time away from the scripts.  I'm about ready to get back to those.  I've had to do some other life things like paying bills and today was career day at the middle school, so I used my time to prepare. 

I need to make some changes in my life because staying in this rut is taking a toll.  The writing is coming along, so as long as I keep plugging away, those good habits are going to serve me well.  It's time to add more stuff to my routine.  Specifically when it comes to my eating and exercising habits.  About 80% of the time, I'm making better eating choices, now it's time to keep track of much I eat.  The other is that I need to be moving more.  When I worked at the other campus, I walked all the time so that really helped.  Since that job ended, I haven't kept it up, which has meant weight gain.  Not a good thing. Especially because of the effect it's having on my knee. It's getting so much worse. I'm in pain all the time which then leads me to not being active and stress eating. Talk about a vicious circle to be caught in. 

My mind and body need help, so it's time to get my head out of the ostrich hole it's been in and take the next steps that I need to move on.